Life!...it's phases of excitement...,exhileration..., happiness and then -... the more mundane... intolerance..., impatience... and unfortunately just plain ignorance!

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Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Oh Sh*t! -The Cringe Factor

I inadvertently republished all the entries I have ever made to my blog earlier - after upgrading to blogger beta - I physically cringed when I saw the reblog on KBW...its ok I guess... However, it reminds me of a situation at work where one of my workmates gave too much information to our director - (I really detest ass kissers!) I am not sure if it was inadvertent,innocent,or just plain ambitious, but it has left a sour feeling amongst us at work. I felt let down because although I was not involved, it was a situation I could quite easily have been in too. This 'loose canon snitch' in question took it upon herself to inform the boss that one of us was considering leaving work. Damn! I regret anything I have ever confided about myself to this person. The boss took the information as the gospel truth and used it as justification to promote the offending cheapskate over our hapless workmate - who is vastly more experienced and in our opinion more deserving of the promotion. Something wrong with this picture? Hell yes there is but who do you complain to? Why does this bother me anyway? Well being a pacifist(not to be confused with 'softie') by nature means that I get on equally well with everyone at work and that means I try as a rule not to be judgemental in my relationships with anyone. My reaction to the obvious betrayal was sought from everyone around me. I feel a bit used by all this and I feel reluctuant to be the moral sounding board for them . They obviously respect my opinion but either way I feel lose by taking a stand. The way I see it our boss is to blame for spilling the beans in the first place. However her management stlye is based on an unclear command structure that changes erratically depending on circumstances. It doesnt help that there is a palpable atmosphere of mistrust for 'non - nationals'(formerly 'aliens') working here and the more caucasian looking you are the more probable it is that you will be listened to seriously. If this is an indication my workmate that it is time to move on I'm sure it can't get any clearer - I once had a similar experience in a previous part time job - they hired somebody gave them my hours and feigned ignorance when I protested - I resigned before it got ugly.